I’m about to go to sleep

Buuut, I thought I’d  blog a little bit since I want to keep this going throughout the year. Well. I don’t know, I guess today was okay this morning… I don’t know I’ll just start from my day since the AM.

Kay so I woke up at 6:20 and the first thing I saw was a beautiful sky outside. These days I haven’t been closing my blinds all the way because I like the light when I wake up. But this morning it was a beautiful like pink color and I seriously just sat in my bed for ten minutes admiring the sky. Oh yeah, I started sleeping on the other side of my bed lately… I don’t know why. But it just made me start thinking about how much I’m going to miss waking up in that room. As you can see, I’m still drowning in my pool of room depression.

WELL… link crew stuff happened. I was tired, but my kids were nice (: I really like them, they’re sweet and pretty funny I guess. Anyways… IDK. I realize that like as much as I try to be outgoing and shake the shy girl image, nothing changes. I’m still always going to be percieved as shy and quiet and I don’t know… I guess I am shy at times, but still! AH. Anyways, as the day went on… things were good then I got home from dance practice and I wasn’t in such a good mood anymore. Oh well. Goodnight.

Sleepy,

Karen

Party in the USA…

Yeah, that IS a Miley Cyrus song. Yes, she did sing this last night and YES it did look like she was kind of pole dancing but it was not as bad as some people are saying sheesh. But she could’ve looked a LITTLE bit classier… seeing your bra on stage is not a good thing. But yeah, the song’s stuck all up in my head! It’s catchy -_-

Anyways. It’s 11ish and I have freshman orientation to do for link crew tomorrow and I am NOT ready to get there at SEVEN AM! AHHH earlier than school. my goodness. Oh well, I’m excited (: Well highlights of today: Spaghetti! Then I tried to have a siesta and failed horribly… couldn’t sleep. THEN at around 6? I went on a walk/jog while listening to KPOP and then some other songs. In the beginning, this SS501 song came on and I was jogging right? And this cute guy is walking toward me and we make eye contact and I keep on jogging and I started cracking up. BECAUSE the song playing at the time was straight out of a korean drama. I felt like I was in a drama hahahaha. That was probably the highlight highlight of my day But it was so nice, just walking, feeling the cool air. Sometimes days just need to be simple don’t you think?

Oh. Phone decision time is nearing… I’m swaying toward the Blackberry Curve 8900. What do you guys think? Heck I don’t think anybody reads this anyway -__- Oh well, here’s the Curve!

oh snap thats huge. Anyways, a last note: My sister was talking about the Blackberry and called it the Blueberry and didn’t notice till I told her. NOW who’s smarter. UNHH Tiffany.

Love,

Karen

Sad

Pretty much I’m a little down in the dumps because I’m moving out of my room in a couple weeks ): I should not be complaining because it’s something that is necessary. Since my grandpa has been getting older, he needs more help and whatnot during the day and nighttime. So my uncle or someone is going to move in to help out with him, using my room. So I have to move into my grandpa’s tiny room which frankly scares me ): It’s constantly dark and just doesn’t give me good memories. I don’t know why I’m so heartbroken over this, since it’s not like I’m moving out yet or anything… it’s just sad. I’ve been in this room for as long as I can remember and I love how I can open the blinds and amazing sunlight would come in. Now when I open the blinds, nothing will come in… I shouldn’t be this sad ): When college comes around, I’ll have to move out anyway… but still. I would love if  I could come home to MY room.

In all my depressing glory,

Karen

new post again?!

I am feeling great because I am on top of this blogging ordeal! Minus the fact that I should be writing my AP Eng. essay… everything else is good. Well… I got my schedule this morning! It is exactly how I imagined it, so no big surprise -_- UM. I am so surprised though by how many people got missing classes on their schedules. Lucky people… anyways, let me continue on describing what I love about the remaining 2PM members. If you hate Kpop/are sick of me always talking about it- stop reading right now (:

WooYoung-

• ADORABLEx340384934
• He is the most like naive and clueless boy ever
• He has a beautiful voice, as you can see from the post I have ^
• I love how he is a determined guy, and his dancing’s cute too
• He’s awkward. You gotta love an awkward man

JunHo-

• HE LOOKS LIKE RAIN!
• He has the cuuuuutest smile out of all of 2PM
• TINY EYES FTW <3
• He’s an amazing dancer (:
• He may be quiet sometimes, but he has a great personality
• HE TWEETS (:

Chansung-

• I didn’t like him AT ALL earlier, but now I love him (:
• His facial expressions are the funniest things ever
• He can eat like nobody’s business… which is a plus
• He’s the youngest of the group (1990) closest age gap?
• He isn’t especially good at any particular thing, but he works hard

Nichkhun-

• Eh, he’s okay (:
• He’s adorable and yes his winks make me SWOON sometimes
• I love it when he sings Nothing Better everytime they ask him to sing
• He’s half chinese?
• He’s a sweetie

Junsu-

• He’s my least favorite
• I had a bad impression of him, but now he’s okay (:
• He has a really pretty voice with good vocal ranges
• He needs a haircut

Here are a few more videos (:

I loved this episode (: Especially when they get woken up hahah

Just watch the boy wink

Love,

Karen

2pm.

Hottest time of the day, Hottest men ever? I’m just kidding -_-

But honestly, I have fallen down a dark deep bunny hole of doom: Fandom. <Heard that term in a video and it seemed fitting… 2PM is my newest and probably the biggest obsession I have ever had in my 16 years. I don’t ever remember being so caught up in the lives of celebrities that don’t even know I exist. Yes, it’s pathetic… and annoying… and just plain weird. But. It makes me happy (: I guess through the monotonous days of summer living, when there’s nothing to do all day… 2PM gets me through it!  hahah all the variety shows they’re on are HILARIOUS. Watching them get paired up with members of SNSD and After School is freaking entertaining. A) You get to watch their adorable “charms” B) It’s cute when you get to see them all defensive about getting the right girl C) Jaebum & Taec are fluent in english and its attractive. The fact that they can speak english creates this like odd connection where I feel like I have a chance of talking to them someday hahah. It’s like “Hey, YOU’RE from america, I’M from America <3″ I’m so pathetic ): This blast of 2PM kpop madness has also gotten me into my obsession of Kpop music! I am in total happiness just listening to Lollipop-Big Bang & 2NE1 on a carride to Cupertino. Kpop what have you done to me? Hopefully my obsession fades since I’ve just about watched every possible video on youtube about 2PM. I AM DONE. NO MORE.

BUT NOT REALLY. I’m going to talk about what I find attractive in 2PM. Pretty much, my way of trying to figure out WHY I am so helplessly in love with them! Kay, lets start with TAECYEON.

Taec-

• He has the DORKIEST personality I have ever seen, EVER.
• He used to be a huuuuge nerd/dork before JYP made him beautiful.
• His smile can light up anything -__- it’s HUGE.
• He can’t sing, but has the manliest rapping voice (:
• He’s from America & missed his Jr. Prom to come to Korea < cute fact…
• He’s six feet tall… <3
• He loves to eat & sleep. My favorite things to do ever!
• He’s 20. Not too big of an age diff?

Jaebum-

• He has such a hilarious personality (:
• It’s really cute that he can’t speak korean very well but I hate it when he looks lost
• He’s only a state away?
• His body… 10 out of 10? hahaha I doubt anybody will get this reference -__-
• He’s a hard worker (:

Wow, I just got really really really sleepy right now hahaha. I’ll update the loves I have for the other 5 members later. But for now, a short rant on those korean variety shows. OKAY. So these shows obviously love to put Kpop celebs on the spot, we know that. But they take it to a whole new level! Every embarrassing thing a celeb does, they have to point it out in like hot pink letters on the screen! I feel so bad for them hahaha. OK short rant done. Now for some OPTIONAL videos, except for michelle. For michelle, these are mandatory.

LOL their reality show -__- wild bunny. sound effects make it even better (:

Taec can’t sing OR rap <3 But he’s adorable anyway

in love with Jae’s voice (: What a smooth man. Uh then he starts dancing hahahaha

Wooyoungs reallyyy good at singing! He’s adorable.

english radio interview (:

OK IM DONE FOR NOW. Mind you, it’s almost 2AM. I have no life hahahah.

Love,

Karen

update!

hello all! i’m here to update on life, i guess! i haven’t been on here and i deleted the super emo posts that i had posted last since those are no fun -__- plus i hate being emo even though today was pretty much an emo day… life sucked for a couple of hours and i had an ugly glare on my face all day! i failed my math test… which explains the grumpiness, will elbowed me in the head, and then to top it all off: my pizza sauce spilled all over weston’s bag and some of alex’s shirt. sorry guys! eeee
well let’s see. this past weekend was PROM. yes, prom.. what to say what to say. well it was pretty fun a LOT of work was put into planning it, but it turned out beautiful. too bad people didn’t really appreciate the hard work, oh well. umm we didn’t take too many pictures sadly pretty much like none since we didn’t have time. uh Straits had terrible service, at least for me. they charged me for a dish i didn’t even touch! ahhhh i should’ve fought it, i’m dumb. sighh, i don’t know. nothing much is going on. leland’s prom is next week and i think i am attending elaine’s dinner… unsure at this point. ok i am signing out!

the most terrible time to blog…

but whatever. i have hecka apush stuff to do and im blogging… i make terrible decisions. but oh well. sighh  my mood right now would probably be idk. indifferent. same things are still bothering me, ive been doing a lot of thinking about how i function. friends are a HUGE part of my life and i strive to keep all my friends. lately, i feel left behind a bit and just like thinking that i care too much about what my friends think. i forget the meaning of friends sometimes.

sometimes it feels like the way i evaluate all my friends doesnt match up to what friends should be. its definitely not the time to be picky but idk.  i shouldnt have to worry that ill be forgotten if i dont talk to my friends for a couple days.. smalll things like that. why should i think like that? if my friends care about me, they will be there for me no matter how long its been. we should be able to talk like normal, yet i still believe that things will be different. im a paranoid person.

i have a lot of friends that i consider good and best friends, each in their own different way. but here’s my section about my oldest and best friend. we met not liking each other. we were and still are the most opposite of people ever yet we fit perfectly. you understand me like no other and im unafraid to speak my mind around you. this is the first year that we have been tested with distance.. we rarely talk anymore, no more dishes time and i havent hung out with you in foreverrr! its a lot different than how it was before but it doesnt change a thing. to be honest, at time i have taken you for granted.. like your the rock that will never be moved no matter what and im sorry for that. i have never forgotten that you were the one that cares about me and puts me ahead of everybody in your life. even now, when we talk once a week online or on the phone, nothing has changed. we talk like we’ve always talked and even if there are silences, they are never awkward. there doesnt need to be words to quickly fill up the silence because its okay if there’s silence. its the kind of friendship that i know i can always rely on.

i love my friends, end of story no matter what!

it is 9:47 and…

everybody knows that i use these extra minutes before an exact time like 10:00 to do random stuff like this. i mean what’s like 13 minutes anyway? im in a very expressful mood right now so i thought id blog : ) once again i am feeling very calm and at peace with my life. i have SO much to worry about, but in these 12 minutes left i have, im totally calm and feeling great. i am listening to coldfront-amie miriello. its really like soothing and kind of sad but im not feeling the sadness. anyways i really like it : ) im not too sure what i want to talk about right now but ill just go with it. i realized that i should appreciate the friends i have more than i do right now : ) i guess sometimes i will take friends for granted and assume that they will be there no matter what. i am flattered that people come to me to express their emotions and trust me with their feelings and such. i live and thrive off the feeling of being needed and when i lose that feeling, i feel lost its really weird actually -_- but its the truth. i guess maybe its like a momma bird seeing her baby fly away and being able to survive on its own… except i aint no momma. : ) when the people that usually come to me for every little decision and such realize that they can do it on their own, i feel happy and kind of sad? i dont know where im going with this. im so into all this soulful girl music. gravity- sara bareilles. the ultimate song to just put you at ease.

my thoughts on BDTW and other stuff…

well as a lot of you may know, today was breaking down the walls at school and i was invited to go. my thoughts signing up for it were excitement, happiness that i was getting a chance to go, and other good feelings like that. thinking about it as the time drew near gave me weird feelings. i got more and more nervous, unsure of what to expect and just scared. the day before i almost decided not to go, as idk i didnt really WANT TO. i thought.. ehh i will probably  have this same opportunity next year… why not go later? but when the time came, i got to school and got straight into line. same nervous feelings, but still ready to i guess overcome whatever came my way in the next couple of hours. being in line took FOREVER.. like almost an hour in the cold. not fun…

anyways. once we were all inside, we took a seat on the bleachers and listened to stu talk to us about random facts and just fun lighthearted stuff like that. he made us do a bunch of awkward activities where we had to meet new people like being birdies and finding our perches (partner’s knee) yeah opposite gender partners. so awkward! and then some girl dragged me to the middle to write my initials with my butt -____- hahaha yeah not so fun especially since it was documented. oh well its okayy. that was all the fun getting to know each other stuff all before lunch. we also got into our small groups and did some fun stuff and all that. so after lunch pretty much we did the long awaited ‘cross-the-line activity’ not going to lie, i was afraid. like really scared of having to cross the line or people like watching me and all that. but as we did some practice stuff, i realized that it was okay. so many people were crossing the line it was just comforting in a way. i truthfully did not cross that line very often only because i didnt apply to any of the stuff he was asking. it was all such serious stuff having to do a lot with being let down, depression, drugs, death. it really got to me seeing people that i knew cross the line for hard subjects like that. the fact that people believe that death is the only answer to their problems just amazes me everytime i think about it. seeing all the people that felt that way was just frustrating. i know that i probably have never been in the situations they have, but death is never the answer. another thing that really stuck with me from the experience was when stu said, ‘most people who consider suicide never go through with it only becuase they have someone they have to see the next day’ that brought tears to my eyes hearing it. its so true that everybody has someone they have to stay for no matter what. sigh. im going to be honest and say i didnt take that much from the whole experience. but i did learn so much about what others around me are going through and how i should be so thankful and its just a whole new perspective. hmmm

hello

hehe i just got a new layout.. that i chose because it was called ‘The Journalist’ and i thought that maybe it would help me.. idkk. i dont know what im trying to say. bottom line is: im digging it.

so i was on wongfuproductions.com and i saw that there was the bio section and if you dont already know this, i LOVE reading bios. so i was getting my read on when i saw that there was a link to philip wang’s xanga. so i clicked it and i was reading his little blog and it made me want to write. it made me want to sound knowledgable and have people read about my boring life. so im gonna write.. i never keep up with it but i want to i have also forgotten to write in my diary i dont like this font. but what can i do about it?

ill tell you guys about my day

okay so i went to bed hecka late at like 3 ish probably and i wake up at like 9:45 to my mom telling me that im going to be late for chinese school. so i get up, shower, make a nutella sandwich and im off to leland. i realize that going to chinese school is so normal. its part of my routine and i think nothing of it. with regular school, there are all these random worries sometimes but with chinese school those worries are minimal. its just a really like calm place to be.. like everybody is different but at chinese school everybodys friends. there are all kinds of people. there are popular kids there are nerdy kids there are kids in between but i love that we’ve been in the same class for years. but i also regret not getting to know all of them. maybe in the next year ill talk to every single one of them its a goal. anyways. after chinese school i get home and eattt and then i call kimbo and part 2 of my day begins.

so kim comes and gives me my gift an adorableeee little cell phone holder. EXACTLY what i need t hank you boo<3 so i get my flipflops and we’re off to jeffrey fontana park for some relaxing we walk and talk and walk and talk all the way to almaden roasting company for some smoothies and fraps. then more walking and more talking.. its pretty much what we always do and i love it becuase i love kim. walking with her never gets old and its always refreshing to have something to lean back on and just relax for a little bit.  on the way home, we see this pregnant cat it was so orange so big we called it garfield and it was SO CUTEE! but KIM wouldnt pet it! lame o as we’re watching this cat, we hear our names called! we turn around and its michael and michelle! ahhaha so randommm but nice surprise ehehhe. seeing michael drive made me want to drive oh welllll. idk what else to say right now so goodbye <3