cool beans

forever.
But here I am, and I am digging this arial font. It always bugged me when the default post font was Georgia… anyways… that’s not the point of this post.
I wanted to post about nostalgia… again. Yes, this is probably my most favorite thing to talk about but all for good reason, okay? Nostalgia hits me like stupid raindrops on a stupid cloudy day. Sucks.
Yesterday was one of those days… one of those terribly nostalgic and sad days. Nostalgia only hits me when I’m sad.. it’s like it knows it’s my weakness. I was by myself in my dorm room, staring outside my window listening to Miley Cyrus’ ‘The Climb’… I kept thinking about middle school… back to the day when I had to go to the orthodontist’s office during the middle of school and when I came back at lunch, I hopped out of the car into the sunshine and the fall breeze and skipped my way into the building. Castillero was beautiful… the suburban beauty was my favorite. The trees, grass, leaves, houses, cars… everything. I missed going to school and knowing that I’d eventually be able to go home afterwards. I hated at that moment yesterday that I could not be able to go home.. I wanted to go home. I wanted to go back to being in public schooling at home… seeing my mom after school and having her make me food, watching tv, doing hw… not really.
I felt so sad yesterday because I was frustrated. I couldn’t figure out what I wanted to do and it frustrated me. My grades are terrible and it frustrated me even more… I honestly was just so upset with life in general. I feel better now but I don’t know. I miss it all.